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Angel: Out hoppin' and I'm glad I landed here! Oh, honey, I have been where you are! Most importantly, don't beat yourself up. In doing so, you can't help but lose focus on who you really are. I'm thinking of you and praying for you. I'll be back!
midnight (me): hi Lyn. I'm not feeling loved. I'm feeling abandoned...I tried! (trust me, I did...) I don't understand why God doesn't rescue me. I don't understand why he allows me to continue to suffer at the hands of others. I don't understand why he hasn't allowed me to rise above the depression. Have any answers?
Lyn: You know broken, you said in your likes that you like God. Well that is good if it is the true and living God, cause He loves you. He can take broken pieces and make them whole. But it has to be HIS way, because HE alone know the best way.
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khei: hi! pray to God with all your heart and trust him to make things alright! If your feel and think you are alone, remember that you are not alone, God is always with you, even at time you think He is not there! Anyway, God bless you! i'll be praying for you
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Lady Wolfen Mists: I am wishing you many blessings and understanding so you can rise above your pain. May God send the Angels to touch your heart and lift you up. We are not of the same religion but I do believe we both wish to be servants of the Lighted Path and I want you to know you are not alone on your Spiritual journey. As God is beside you so are other Light workers who will help you as you may need
kitten Sanctuary: Thanx for the stop by.....I like your site and the color scheme....yes, plastics do that.....and beware of pot-top cat and dog food.....sealed with a form of ether.....this is in human cans also.....ya' all have a great rest of the day.....and a better tomorrow.....
Coffee Shop: Hello, out blog hopping. Have a good day.
SeanSL: I really don't like people being sad. Be happy dear. The world is very big. Universe is infinite. So is the time. Time is the greatest healer as it has no end. Keep posting your nice blog. I'll visit everyday. Bye!!
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Sunday, August 19th 2007

10:54 AM

Feeling like a Complete Failure....

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It's been quite a long time since I wrote anything here.

On my rollercoaster ride of life, I'm DOWN again...

Right now, I feel really alone....really sad...depressed...like a complete failure. I just want to crawl in a hole and die. It takes a great deal of effort to appear "okay"...I so badly want to cry. Sucking back tears, and trying to keep up appearances is hard work. I forced myself to go out in a public place this morning around others. I tried to appear cheerful, light-hearted, friendly... I succeeded, but at what cost? I feel even more miserable now.

I'm wondering if there's anyone else out there in blog land who 'forces' themselves to keep up appearances, even when they feel like sh*t.

(If I had a cigarette now, I'd smoke it. I quit a long time ago...but the craving still takes me occasionallly.)

How do others deal with depression?

What can you do, if you recognize it, am going through it, but unable to beat it????

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